Some people are people watchers. They enjoy just sitting in the park or at the mall and watching the people walking by. People watchers look at the way other people act and interact, and secretly try to comprehend what makes us tick as human beings. Perhaps it goes deeper for these "people watchers." I used to consider myself one of these. I don't watch so much anymore rather, I think I'd describe myself as one who studies people, or a scholar of human interaction.
Rest assured if you are part of my life, your personality has been intensively studied by me. Not in a bad way by any means. I study you because I am interested in you. I am interested in your thoughts and feelings. I am interested in what interests you. I want to know what your understanding of this world is. I want to know what you are afraid of. And I want to know what you need to become a happier, healthier, more satisfied person. And I want to help you be that person.
I happen to be a very sensitive person that has felt emotional pain very deeply in my life. I have experienced such emotional traumas that for several years I thought about ending my own life. This only came to an end when I was so ready to end the pain that I either had to end my life or I had to literally start life over again and re-learn how to live. In fact, I continue to "re-learn" how to live on a very daily basis to this day, and continue to learn daily for the rest of my life.
My motivation and strong desire to help people improve themselves and overcome their own emotional trauma is then borne out of my recovery from my own emotional traumas. Because I know what it is to hurt like I have, my deepest sympathies go to those who are still suffering from hurts of their own. And my passion then becomes intervening in the midst of their pain, and perhaps they will never feel the debilitating depression that I have felt in my short life.
And for this position, I request the salary of one hug, one handshake, or one expression of gratitude, followed by joy in the lives of those I can encourage. That's all the payment I need or want. Merely the opportunity to make a difference in someones life for the glory of Christ.
